♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Nikki

His thought was aborton isn’t right because you are killing an innocent baby.  If you don’t want to keep the baby you put it up for adopton after it is born and never have to worry about it again.  Even though it is the result of a sin, in this case it was rape, the baby hasn’t committed a sin.  I understand where he was coming from here and I can agree with him on every part of what he said.  This has never happened to me, and for that I thank God, but I would most likely put up the baby for adoption.  I say that now but I know that when something happens it can alter your ideas.

Though I agreed with him, I asked him to look at it from a girl’s point of view.  I said, “Not only did this guy invade you in the most personal and fucked up way possible, he got you pregnant. That thing inside you is that motherfucker’s child….and it reminds you of what he did to you every time you think about it, everytime you get sick and have to run to the bathroom to throw up your breakfast or dry heave cause its the third time this morning.”  The baby of your rapist ould be living inside of you until you gave birth, nine months later, a constant reminder of what he did to you.

This whole situation really makes you think….there are so many opinions it’s hard to decide what’s right and what’s wrong. 

What do you guys think?

~Rose (Yes, I do know it’s been forever =] )

Song at the moment: Careless Whisper by Seether

It would be so hard with all the snow on the ground though and the temperature in the single digits, but it’d be fun.

*imagine*
Teenagers armed with flashlights, some dressed for the weather in ski pants and coats, others not dressed for the weather. All of us running around, potentially screaming, and falling in the snow. Laughing, getting way to competitive. Having a blast.
*/imagine*

Well it sounds fun to me. (:

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Nikki

He acts first.
Grabbing her Gi,
turning, twisting, pushing her,
this way and that way,
trying to throw off her balance.

She moves to the side,
pulling him by his Gi to the floor.

Turning,
she jumps on his back,
securing her arm around his neck.

He tries to throw her off.
Attempting to flip her,
over his head.

Her legs are locked around him.
She doesn’t budge.

She tightens the choke,
a little bit more.

Blood flow is hindered,
air flow almost cut off.
A little more she tightens.

She feels the satisfying Tap,
she releases.

Rocking back on her feet.

The Victor.

When my mom woke me up for good it was 7:30. My sister and I were late for school because of this. But because our vice-principal decide that if we come in 30 seconds,  a minute, what ever, we get detention. So because we were about two minutes late, we have detention. Me, I don’t get detentions… This is ridiculous to me, but there’s nothing I can do. Oh well.

I bowled today during our last match. We took all four points, yay us! I bowled horrible though… A 97. I expected a little better after my 124, 127, and 134 on Saturday. But despite me sucking horribly we still did awesome!

Now we have midterms the rest of the week. This week is going to be exciting…

Can’t wait untill this weekend!

Lessons I learned today: 

1. Don’t trust my mom to wake you up on time.
2. My bowling team won’t always freak out if you’re doing bad.
3. My bowling team talks a lot about people behind their backs, literally.
4. Life isn’t always fair.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Nikki

Number 1: So it isn’t really an item but I’m extremely excited for my little sister’s first Christmas.  It’s going to be so cool.  I missed her first Thanksgiving, I was with my boyfriend, but she can’t eat much yet anyway lol.  She just gummed mash potatoes.  Anyway, she already looks adorable in a Santa hat, I put one on her when we were decorating the Christmas tree.  Not sure if she’s going to know to try to rip the paper off or if she’s going to eat the wrapping paper.  Either way its going to be fun, I can’t wait.

Number 2:  So, I’m a bit of a music addict and decided, today actually, that I want an iPod touch, don’t think it’s gonna happen lol but maybe.  My mp3 player, though I love it and its amazing speaker, is full.  I have enough room to put maybe ten more song on it, so I need something new with more than 2G.  Time to call my grandpa and aunt lol.

Number 3:  I found this awesome hoodie.  It’s black, zips up the front, etc.  On the back there are two pistols that face away from eachother and shoot into wings.  Everything on the back is silver, it’s so pretty. I showed it to my mom over a month ago so I’m hoping she had enough time to order it.

Well, that’s really all I asked for this year.  I told everyone else to guess. Sorry to any of them who happen upon this.

~Rose

Song at the moment:  “Always the Love Songs” by Eli Young Band

Waking up,
a wolf is howling,
huging one last time,
hand in hand,
racing through the forest.

My best mistake ever was calling a friend I made online. I had told my parents I would never do that but then my friend was doing it so… she jumped off the bridge and I followed promptly after her.

 After I started talking to him on the phone, fighting errupted on all fronts. Everyone was lying to one another (there was a total of seven of us talking to each other), and sides were chosen. Me and one other person against the other five. I was on the losing end of everything and got hurt pretty bad. (gotta love teen drama).

In the end, I got a really good friend who would be there for me no matter what.. if he lived in the same state as me >.< (he’s not the one who I started talking to in the begining either. that person isn’t even worth these few words here.)

The rest is ancient history.

♥Nikki♥